Atma just read a little of the stories of the Ven. Ñāṇavimala you Dylan have been given in the topic my person got aware of you.
You must be very, don't know how to say, maybe to scared to be able to do anything for now. So my person thought its maybe good to use this opening and just tell you some things that you might need to bear in mind.
Actually my person merely does not like to even touch Dhammabooks and biographies of special people because seldom either the authors nor those who make their certain bussinesses with it, are really aware of what seldom occation they met and if they express some kind of gratitude is merely the same as a normal person in regard of his favorit consume product. It might sound hard, but Atma is really tierd to approch them and less of all the authors, gifted people actually, my person already met in one or another kind of encouragement, call it rebuke.
People live stories of other people are seldom aware of either what they do nor would they get the message or their heros. When they one day accounter them frontal, touched, their heros actually become quick their enemies. Like in the situation you are now, but you have the Vorteil not believing to be a monk meeting just another monk...
In regard of Tudong practice or better a practice for the sake of liberation driven by compassion and metta not just for one self but all, my person did not really come accross many who would display such an image.
Tudong practice died out with the contact of modern life, not because of deforestration, living a live like a bird does not require deep forest everywhere since one needs to walk for alms as well, but through desire for gain of honor and material things. (Need to go up to have some recharge)