Merits

[blazer]

Yesterday has been a good day.
Even if unintended, i think i held a good degree on 8 Sila. Indulged in some company, trying to talk only with virtuous people, managed somehow.

The last two nights, here is what i have directly experienced
Reality changes with the mind. One can experiment that a single instant can last forever, but it is ultimately destined to vanish. I've seen space distorsions. Space related to other living beings, space doesn't exist in itself?

Body can be perceived in four ways: fire, fluid, hardness, wind. Except for hardness, if i'm right, i've perceived that there are still a few areas inside the body where those elements cannot be felt.

One can use an "inner eye" by looking inside onself, turning the eye from observing external to observing internal.
An eye is like a light, which can observe in one direction. An eye can be directed in any point of the body, inside it, and be put in a "dark" area. Then something can be seen, or the eye fades. Where the eye fades, this means that area have to be cleaned. So, observing with patience, some kind of fire element arises and sankhara are destroyed.
If, doing this, one lose mindfulness and wanders, then he may find more darkness in that area, and have to start cleaning back again. So maybe new birth taken place.

New births can take place with music. For now from today, i'm trying to taolly avoid it. I understood it gave motivation, to feel sensations or to make anlysis, but it generates too much agitation and is no longer a valid tool.

Still unsure with soma plant. As suggested, having honestly reviewed experiences and toughts, it's use, possibly after dinner in darkness, can be useful. It has to be used wisely: it's combo with music have been extremely dangerous in the past (even if powerful) and it's not worth to try again. The most dangerous thing with soma is social contact and sense stimulation, so if avoided, backed by right view, intention, having done one's homeworks, it can give insight.
Not sure if it can accompain a good disciple to the very final goal, but i'm the one who has to find out all truths.

For the rest, i'm starting appreciating Deva's world and practicing Sila: it's good to improve one's own happiness and the happiness of others!

I have to say, Bhante's advices have been very useful, a good guide to know one's own truths.
Today, probably going out on the hills. City has a bit too much stimulations.
Also, periodically taking time of solitude, contemplation, to restore tranquillity, is a strong shield over backsteps.
Comminucation should be done with good/great beings, not for much time, and very small time, or refusing directly, when encountering lesser people.

Thanks for reading

 

[Johann]

Mudita

Silena sugatiṁ yanti.
Through virtue they go to a good destination.

Silena bhoga-sampadā.
Through virtue is wealth attained.

Silena nibbutiṁ yanti.
Through virtue they go to Unbinding.

Tasmā silaṁ visodhaye.
Therefore we should purify our virtue.