Loss

[blazer]

A dear one just passed away.
May she take a favorable rebirth due to some very good karma of the past.
May all the family find own proper refuge.

Much talking, taking contact with many people "forcefully", giving support to relatives, consume. The last weeks much skills have been lost, sometimes for part of the day i've not been in concentration (jhana), pains arose.
After having found some time for myself alone today, 24 hrs after the event, strong concentration arose during walking.
Then a strong push came after having taken refuge to an elder friend in a place where i practiced as bodhisattva the last years. Not sure im understanding why. Concentration is automatic and discernment is good now, not sure for awareness (much lack of sleep, pain, fatigue), but danger of losing all of this is not out of sight.

What could be proper reflections now?
What proper conduct?

 

[Johann]

Namo tassa bhagavato arahato sammā-sambuddhassa

Appāyuka Sutta: Short-lived

I have heard that on one occasion the Blessed One was staying near Sāvatthī at Jeta's Grove, Anāthapiṇḍika's monastery. Then Ven. Ānanda, emerging from his seclusion in the late afternoon, went to the Blessed One and, on arrival, having bowed down to him, sat to one side. As he was sitting there he said to the Blessed One, "It's amazing, sir. It's astounding — how short-lived the Blessed One's mother was. Seven days after the Blessed One's birth she died and reappeared among the Contented [Tusita] (deva-) group."

"That's the way it is, Ānanda. That's the way it is, for the mothers of bodhisattas are short-lived. Seven days after the bodhisattas' birth, the bodhisattas' mothers pass away and reappear among the Contented (deva-) group."

Then, on realizing the significance of that, the Blessed One on that occasion exclaimed:

Those who have come to be,
those who will be:
   All
   will go,
leaving the body behind.
The skillful person,
realizing the loss of all,
should live the holy life
   ardently.

Quote from: https://zugangzureinsicht.org/html/tipitaka/kn/ud/ud.5.02.than_en.html

A person, good householder blazer , of gratitude toward his own and others may sacrifices, on and on, for so long time, seeing the pain and suffering by taking on house, birth on and on... having traced the way out by meeting the Gems, doesn't wait a minute in wasting his precious change. Seeing the danger in all world, such a sake goes on to do his duty in gratitude, makes bond to Mara an end, and lives the holly live for the welfare of all others and himself: becomes a real helper, giver, Bhagavato.

Having left in gratitude, the path, by renouncing-joy arise, take the pure upon the highest goal.

[blazer]

All relatives went from afar came back home.
I'm happy of having been of good help to some of them.

It looks the rewards of meditation have been so useful to face these days of great stress.
I'm so greteful for it.

 

[Johann]

Mudita