Ven Johann,
i've just finished the whole article about avatar, nice one.
I have passed a wonderful day yesterday, and found very good motivation.
Currently concentration looks automatic and spontaneous, with or without intoxicants, in most moments, for long periods, undisturbed, happy.
I've found good some good association, good talk and a slight change of view. I noticed that after the strivings and experiences of 9-10 sept. i was kind of disturbed. So i developed some sort of "aversion toward distractions" which i find not ideal for a joyful travel. I was somehow (very slightly) blaming a distraction, because it was there and distracting me; because i wasn't repulsed by it i got agitated. It's not the way.
I feel somehow like may, possibly some kind of pleasure not of the flesh is constantly there. I'm experimenting good concentrations, maybe of different kinds. Noticed in eye-sense and ear-sense. I found out that for some type of obstructions/problems, analysis/direc experiences can be better than dissipation by concentration, and it's not the first time.
I will try to work with balance this weekend, balancing joy and control, what is of the flesh and not, not associating with "bad" ones for more that a few minutes, controlling bad conceit and main intoxicants to a reasonable degree. Not sure it's good to force things. I will for sure deeply meditate the next 2/3 nights, will try to do some in daytime also.
Any advice is welcome!
Thank you