Having informed myself about the meaning of Merits and its importance along the path, i will try to keep this topic updated with my latest merits.
Since my leg is healing i've tried to take a walk around the city.
I have done charity two times when homeless looking ones have asked me for an offer on the road.
The first time it happened to me, in order, to be happy of the request, to be happy in giving, then reflecting about this merit.
The second time, which happened a few hours later, i didn't enjoy the act of giving. I felt the person was not going to use the money for the good. But anyway, i gave charity.
I also engaged in thinking about the causes which brang me in a peaceful state, very near to the goal, and about the causes that made this state to (partially) decay. It is a difficult activity since causes are many and i feel lost and alone.
I met two different friends in two different time. Even if now it is more difficult, i have maintained good speech and i rejoiced their happiness in having passed time with me. I also taken joy observing the fact they often make me some kind of offering ( a coffee, food, etc. ).
I'm trying to correct my view, which is corrupted in many ways, by meditating, by reflection. Hard job.
With this, i'm also trying to bring back some order in my life. Having lost the peace of mind brought suffering and confusion.
Since i feel not faultless, not perfect in conduct and effort, i have found beneficial recollecting my own merits, toward the path itself and toward other people. This doesn't look much meritous to me as it looked some time ago.
I think it's worth to keep recollecting those merits everyday and really appreciate their value.
Feel free to rejoice or write any comment